i am really surprised and grateful to see xanga opens a christian community
revelife, a specific blog system for christian relateds

i confess i am a bad christian who only believes in jesus because of the need and desire of seeking help and security. although i pray everyday, the contents are always about personal affairs. yes i pray for the others but they are mainly my friends, which have direct relationships to me. i know how to be a non-selfish person but i've never attempted to be one.

i ain't following god's words, i dun even go to a church or read a bible.

and it's really a big joke for a "christian" like me asking jesus for this and that, keeping me safe in life. i am only a naive little thing. but god's so good to me, he gives me things more than i expected to have. i am not sure if i can be a good daughter of his in the future but i hope to be one. my lord, please be the brightest light in my life, lead me to the right direction in order to get myself improved and improved, donin' more contribution instead of harm or trouble to the others. (i dare not to say 'to the society)

lord, if i'mah do anything wrong please warn me and stop me. please help me get rid of demons and temptations. the final thing, please forgive my guilt and help me on everything i do in life, of course not the wrong ones. please give me a thankful heart and take away my arrogant attitude.

thank you for giving people who love me lot, and friends who are extremely caring and considerate.
thank you for giving me dianachan, eddielai, fulamyu, joanneleung, kfc, pingpingcheng, laihoyan and vannieleung.
they are so good to me.

i totally trust you cause you are the only one that i can totally trust.

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What if there was no light
Nothing wrong, nothing right.
What if there was no time
And no reason or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life

What if I got it wrong?
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong,
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life

Oooooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side
Oooooh, that's right
How can you know it if you don't even try
Oooooh, that's right

Every step that you take
Could be your biggest mistake
It could bend or it could break
But that's the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there in your life
That you don't want me there by your side

Oooooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, jump over the side
Oooooh, that's right
How can you know it when you don't even try
Oooooh, that's right

Oooooh, that's right
Let's take a breath, try to hold it inside
Oooooh, that's right
You know that darkness always turns into light
Oooooh, that's right

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